stuff...

this post is gonna be kinda long, so bear with me, k? :) my first day of work (last Thursday) was so amazing!! of course, i couldn't wait to get up there on that pole! haha. it's funny, but working at Club Eros has actually made me love the club even more. i'm glad to have found a "family" in sl.

By the way, new pictures are going to be posted on my Flickr soon! i wish i could post them all on here, but BlogSpot has to be retarded and give me a limit.

Anyway, the dress i'm wearing in that picture is FREE. it's on the "Fabulously Free in Sl" Blog...i'm following it, so it should be easy to find. the dress is part of a set in a hunt, and every single dress in that set is absolutely GORGEOUS. i was SO amazed by all of them!!!!

I took this picture at the "Free Photography Studio". I don't remember the exact name of the place, nor do i have a landmark (i'm such a huge help, aren't i?) but if you search in-world for "Free Photography Studio" i'm sure it will come up. :)

hmm....being preggo.......is kinda fun, but weird at the same time. i have to take my tummy off for work, and i have to return to my normal shape, so it's not like i'm getting the entire effect. i think watching myself be preggo in sl is making me tired in rl!! hahah!!!

Now that i have a job, i'm thinking about buying the rest of the accessories for my baby. however, i'm still not really making enough to cover what i want to buy.....and i'm not making enough to even cover paying rent on my own place. so i guess my job is just for having fun, stripping, and making a little spending money on the side?? haha.

anyway, i'm sorry i havent posted in a while. rl has got me busy, but somehow i still found time to be in sl a lot.....just don't have time to blog about my adventures after i have said adventures. :) XOXOXOXO

pregnant & a stripper.

CAUTION: what you are about to see is pretty freakin' racy (well, I guess it is), so if that kinda stuff offends you, DONT LOOK!! haha, just scroll down super super duper fast.
But....it's a picture of me........as a stripper.

Goodness...i just can't wait for tonight!!!
tonight is the first night that i work at Club Eros, my favorite club in SL. After i finally got the job there, Persian and i agreed that i would work on Thursday nights.

It's a little weird, but i've been waiting on tonight all week. i can't wait to finally get the chance to actually WORK at a club instead of be a guest. :)

anyway, i'm just going to give you this next bit of news straight up: my pregnancy test came back positive. and, i'm totally happy about it. of course, i take my belly off when i'm working or at clubs, or generally around other people, because how awkward would it be to see a pregnant stripper? i can't have my belly talking to everyone while im upside down on a pole.....XD

i have set the due date for our baby girl to be February 17, 2010.
i can't wait!! hot and i still need to decide on a name, and i'll let you guys know when we do. i'm so happy i'm going to be a mommy.

and thank God this isn't happening to me in rl. XD

come see me at work tonight!
the party at Club Eros is nightly from 7pm-9pm SLT.

ZOMG Zoobys! and mack truck feeling.

I just had to post this picture!! It's of me and my rl bf, Matty, dancing at the club. And yes, I'm still together with Hot.....but since my rl bf has a sl account now, I don't mind taking him out once in a while XD And, hey! look! there's Kissy to the left of us!! *Waves*!! (why am I waving to a freakin' picture?)

Also. Hot and I visited the Zooby Baby store last night.......and well, we goofed around just a little bit. a little. Riding those toy cars was probably the most hilarious thing I saw ALL day yesterday.

Hot was nice enough to lend me $5000 towards the purchase of the Zooby Baby "Casey", and ZOMG, you don't know how excited I am. Of course I'm going to pay him back later, but I have wanted one of those babies for such a long time!!!!!! So, the Baby Story is back in motion!!! :D

Anyway, I have a ton of other pictures I really need to blog about, but I really feel like crap today. My sinuses are all screwy, I'm coughing and sneezing my head off, and on top of that, I feel all feverish. Blah............OH, and did I mention it's supposed to snow here in SC tonight?!! And I have a dog that has to go on regular pee breaks?? Joy. Joy. Joy.

So, I'll probably just post the pictures I want to blog on flickr and call it a day. Because i SO don't feel like blogging about them right now....and for once, my reason is not that i'm being lazy. i just feel like i've been run over with a mack truck.

Yeah.

Most likely, if everything goes according to whatever plan i have, i'll be online tonight, so look for me. my best friend's grandma is having emergency surgery today, so i'm probably going to have to get my fat ass out of bed to go check on my bestie, but i'm sure i'll be back tonight. peace.

restless night....not much news.

well i gotta say...even though my posts have been kind of dead lately, my SL hasn't been, haha.

my rl BF just created an SL account, and i spent like 3 hours today shopping for stuff for him, haha. it was fun and all....but something tells me he's not going to get on SL that much.

and speaking of boyfriends, hot hasn't signed on at all.....i dont even know how long it's been since i last talked to him. which really sucks.......cause i kind of miss him.

but, i've been keeping myself occupied with clubbing and such. Kissy and i are becoming the best of friends...it's funny how a friendship blossomed from a comment that would have otherwise caused us to be enemies. i credit her for that, though, because if it weren't for her loving and forgiving nature...we wouldn't have been friends lol. i can assure you, i'll never talk to her the way i did again, haha.

like i said, not much is new. i was sent a job application (directly from the owner!!) of my favorite club in SL today, and i just filled it out and turned it in ;) i'm pretty excited about it....i'll update with details later. <3

but for now, i have a massive headache but can't sleep. so maybe i'll sign back in for a little while..............

l'eggo my eggo, i'm preggo!!!!

So, last night i spent the majority of my time on SL with Kissy. we talked and laughed, and even shopped together....she and i are becoming closer and closer each day. it's really weird how a friendship could spawn off of my comment to her asking to remove the cuddle rug from my house. XD

last night Kissy and i went shopping......for babies. i've been wanting to see the Zooby Baby store for a while, and when i went last night, i was semi-disappointed the store didn't have any demos, but the pictures on the wall were cute enough. besides, they had the CUTEST nursery sets and stuff.......adorable place. i went to a few other places, but none seemed to really compare to the cuteness of Zooby's babies.....

however, i really kind of want to go through the whole "pregnant" process too.....i dont want to make appointments in clinics and whatnot, but i'm just seriously curious about how the whole "preggo in sl" thing works. plus, i kind of want a baby of my own.....something to care for and entertain me. lol, like some kind of amusing pet, i guess.....it would just be nice to have a family :)

anyway, i haven't really found much that i'm happy with....shopping for pregnancy HUDS has made me even more confused about the whole process than i was before. i'm starting to get the hang of it, though....and i might have settled on something...but i'm not entirely sure yet. i'm just kinda hopeful that this family thing works out :)

and yes, i'm prepared to be judged for being "pregnant in sl", and for all that crap people will give me, and all the questions people will ask. i honestly don't care what other people think, either.....it's what i want for myself and hot, and it's not their concern.

i also find it kind of funny that i absolutely can not STAND children in real life, unless they dont scream or poop or cry...which in that case, children like that don't exist except maybe in heaven. i'm a volunteer at the animal shelter in rl, and i just love animals, dogs in particular....dogs are just more of my thing. i find it easy to train them and just be around them in general...kids? not so much. i also used to really get annoyed by the stupid talking tummies that i see everywhere, but then again, i was always kinda curious about them, too. :)

we'll see how it goes, i guess. i'm still shopping around <3

weird night...

s1_002_1, originally uploaded by Mally Swansen.

last night was kind of weird.......when hot signed on, i was clubbing at Club Eros, which is a favorite of mine. after we talked for a little while....and he just seemed...out of it. like, he wasn't the same person that i know....kissy warned me about that from day one...and now i'm starting to realize what she means.

i know from kissy that he has sort of a drinking issue, but i couldn't tell if that was the case last night or not. he was just acting really weird, not really responding to what i was saying, just giving the classic "I Love You"s over and over again. it finally got to where he wouldn't even answer me when i said stuff so i just said goodnight and signed off.

*sigh*

why on earth do men have to be so damn difficult!!!!!

by the way, i'm doing a little better since my grandpa passed away. i have the support of friends and family, and i know he's in a better place now. it's really difficult, but each day gets easier and easier....thank you to everyone who has supported me through this, i cant tell you how much you mean to me!!! :)

P.S.: in case you didn't know already, new pics are up on my flickr page :)

a really awful Christmas.

So, i've been absent for the past couple of days on SL. My grandfather has been in the hospital since this weekend, and honestly, that's where i've been staying all week. he had a severe stroke while in the hospital, and was sent to the ICU on tuesday....and they put him in hospice tuesday evening.

well, he passed away yesterday morning at about 11am, and i just haven't really felt like doing anything since.

last year at christmas, my mom was in the hospital with cancer. i spent christmas eve at home by myself last year....and i was so looking forward to an actual normal christmas this year. however, i guess that's not going to happen.

his funeral is on saturday, so i probably won't be writing until at least monday. i'm sorry for the absence, guys...i'm just really upset right now, and don't feel like much of anything. :( prayers are much appreciated.